Right now I'm missing my like-minded friends. Friends who believe in the spirit of the law instead of the letter of the law. Friends who I can talk to about the latest Oprah episode about Autism and vaccines and not have to back up my own opinions and thoughts with hard core facts because they have the same opinions and beliefs as me and completely subscribe to the same parenting philosophy as me. I miss my friends who have home births and VBACS and no medical interventions, who view birth as a natural occurrence, one to be loved and enjoyed. I miss sitting around and talking about the amazingness of water birth and listening to similar wonderful birth stories filled with positiveness and no regrets. I miss seeing nursing toddlers, little 2 years olds running around asking for Nani or Nana or Nummies or Mommies or Nursies. I miss it!!
I miss my neurosis of not accepting anything less than perfect for my child's education being completely supported and backed up. I'm tired of having to explain every opinion I have, and when I cant put my thoughts into perfect logical sentences I'm sick of my opinion basically being dismissed instead of attempt at understanding. I'm not one to subscribe to the notion of agreeing to disagree. I still love having dialogue about things. I love the debate. Some people might view that as anger or argument but that's not the case. I cant recall ever arguing with a friend over a difference of opinion. I might be passionate about something but that doesn't necessarily mean I am fighting.
I'm emotionally drained from the past couple weeks. I miss my friends in Arizona. I throw my hands in the air, at least for the time being. I'm done with expressing my opinions (in person, you'll still hear them on my blog). I'm going to try to be that person who sits back and listens and if my opinion is coaxed out of me then I will make it brief. Lets see how long this lasts. I'm voting not too long. But I'm going to try. So, Steve get ready for an earful at the end of the day.
PS. a bit of info about myself, if a blog ever doesn't make sense or there are spelling errors or strange things in it, just know I never re-read my blogs, I type them and then publish. So, what you get is the ramblings from my head, you get what you get.